Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Silly thoughts of a silly girl

All I can offer right now is a (not so) short update on my life. & some thoughts.
Well, well, well.

I had a telephone interview today with this school to become a certified English teacher.
English, as in the different between "their," "there," and "they're," not English as in Shakespeare and Walt Whitman.

Immediate travel plans are Mexico then possibly spend the end of November in Korea with my mom. Korea always makes me feel so grounded and thankful. See below.

I had a silly little thought the other day - a thought that I just kept developing until it sort of consumed me. Here it is:

My travels. Each geographic location. A different experience. A different love.
Korea embodies my roots. She reminds me and keeps me grounded. Her naivete inspires me.
Paris was my first leap, but Barcelona was my first real risk.
Argentina and Guatemala are like two totally different, equally complex personalities I met on a bus and had amazing life-changing conversations with. I think of them often.

Mexico. Ah, Mexico. Like Erykah sang, "He gave me poetry. He was my first." He opened my eyes to sounds and flavors I never knew even existed. He challenged me to the limits of my personality. I always think of Mexico with so much love. Even when people talk shit, I always defend him. I'm always wanting to go back to him. More time is never enough.

And then we have Brazil. Hmm...Brazil is like that surprisingly passionate, profoundly intimate, tragically short love affair that I just can't stop thinking about.

Ah, I miss you, TRAVEL.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

except vs. accept

I put this unnecessary pressure on myself to be the best at everything, which worked as a child when I was doing it subconsciously, but now that I'm starting to identify more of the qualities I don't like as much as I used to, it just seems so petty. And a true waste of time. An inability to accept my limits as a humanoid. Come on, Joy. We've been through this a thousand times. I've probably done this with every new activity or hobby I've picked up over the years, or any new role I've assumed. Though, at least (I think) I've managed to master some things. And not all bad ;)

School's over. For now, anyways.
I can't believe I have to wait four months to physically hold that piece of paper that is the culmination of my four (five?) years of hard work. And I do mean it when I say "hard work."

I am incredibly sleep-deprived. I crave books and travel. And language!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Saudades, como sempre

I may have to change the mission statement of this blog because Brazil's looking pretty far away.

Financially, yes, it's lookin' quite a mess.
But more importantly, because of some very real adult decisions I'm making.

Without giving too much away, if I had it my way, it'd be SD, Latin America, back to the U.S., back to Latin America for awhile, then finally in the U.S. This is my four-year plan.

Meanwhile, I'm still working on my goal to be fluent in 5 languages by the time I'm 25. I've been slacking a little bit. I'm on 3 and a half; less then 3 years to go!

Where my heart lies (plus Mexico, unfortunately not shown here):
I encountered this awesome wall decor made of plates and rope at a Mexican restaurant in Sao Paulo. Amazing...